The Girl Within

People give me way too much credit in life and put me up too high. I wrote this so people can see that I am just a girl who is still fighting to survive in life and that I am far from perfect. I struggle with things in my own life every single day due to the pain of my past. I've lost myself before, losing sight of everything that was important t...
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When I was a kid, I was not allowed to show emotion or to even cry. I was brought up that crying was a sign of weakness so I learned to mask every emotion I felt. Even when my childhood ended and I found myself entering adulthood, I still would not allow myself to cry. I kept silent about the things I was going through and the battles I was fighting within myself. Instead I focused on being there for everyone else and helping them through the tough times. I was always the one they could ...
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f it's one thing that I have struggled with in my own life, it's trusting people and learning to let them near me. I went through a lot of emotional abuse in my childhood and grew up in a family that really did not want me. I could sense it too. Love was not shown in my household nor was affection. My dad would often tell me there was nothing to be proud of me for. If he did give me a hug, he would tell me I didn't deserve it. I know that people think that childhood is only a small portion of...
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I hear various reasons all the time from those who have not gone through abuse and even from other survivors sadly enough on how I should just get over my past and everything I have been through. Some tell me my story is too depressing and that I seem to just be stuck in the past. But I know as a survivor, writing and speaking out is a way of healing. These people who always tell us to be positive must not understand that life is not always beautiful and everyone has those tough days. Sometim...

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